Only a few more days!

Only a few more days until I move! I am so tired of living out of a suitcase! I can't wait! It'll be so nice to feel organized again. Mason needs his crib again, as he's been sleeping in his playpen. He doesn't seem to mind though.
Mason's chest infection is coming along quite well. He has finished his antibiotics. He's quite happy. I am waiting for some teeth to appear though! I think very soon.
We had a nice visit in Maple Creek with his great-grandma last week. She was very sad to see us go. We had to come back earlier because of a appointment for his vaccinations this past Frday, then on Monday his 6 month check-up. He is coming along nicely, growing and developmentaly.
It has been so rainy the past week and a half...I am ready for a bit of sun. We are going to go for a nice walk on Thursday with all of our friends from our 'mommy' group. That's about all that is new here...............just taking things day by day................

Back at my dad's place.....

1 week to go until I move into my new place! I just came back from my grandma's house, which is one hour away from Medicine Hat. We had a pretty good time. My grandma was sad to see us go. I am glad I was there when I was because my grandma is a diabetic, and sometimes her sugar levels drop rapidly, leaving her unconscious or semi-conscious. (This did happen).
Mason was in the ER last week because I could hear a "rattle" in his chest. The doctor did x-rays and gave Mason a nebulizer (He hated it!!!) I was the "meanie" who had to hold it on his face, and he cried and cried. I felt so mean! But the wheeze in his chest improved after that. The docotor said he himself did not see problems with the x-ray, but would have the radiologist review it as well. He said to follow up with our family doctor the next day to check his breathing. The next day, an hour before our appointment with the doctor, the ER physician called me on my cell to say that Mason needed an antibiotic because the radiologist that reviewed his x-ray saw a shadow (the beginning of an infection in his chest). So our family doc put him on medication. (Penicillan) (How the heck do you spell it??!!) Anyhow the day we left to go to my grandma's (last Friday), Mason's bum became red. Well turns out he has a yeast infection..........I am assuming from the antibiotic. So off to get bum cream at the walk-in!!! Then, while visiting my grandma, Mason became constipated.........(weird for him). So off to the pharmacy we went to get stuff for that! (I have a feeling Mason's bum yeast infection won't go away until he's done his antibiotic. (Only 1 more day!!!) That's all that's new here for now!

Happy Mother's Day!

My first Mother's Day! It was okay, considering my situation.....(See previous entry). I went to lunch with my mom-in-law, and stepmom. I also went to visit my mom's gravesite. I sure wish she were here.
Yesterday was soooo hot outside, like about 29 Celcius. Today it is raining and cool.
Oh, in Mason's life: He is on solids. He seems to really like rice cereal, carrots and butternut squash. The funny thing is, is his poop is orangey when eats carrots, LOL! Plus it stains his bum orange a bit, LOL (Even when I have bum cream on him!) Sorry, but it is funny. Anyhow,, that's pretty much all that's new here. When I move into my new place, i'll be able to update this thing more often.
Later! (Gotta go watch the Medicine Hat Tigers kick butt!) GO TIGERS GO!!!!!

Just to let everyone know, I am still alive. I have had some issues lately, not really a good thing, but that's life. Mason is doing well, other than having thrush right now.
Dave and I are somewhat separated at the moment. We had an arguement, he lost his temper and choked me. He is now being charged with assault. He cannot have contact with me right now.
Gotta go, i'll keep everyone posted.
Bye!

Our house is sold!

We are moving!!! Not that I really like moving.....in fact, I hate it! But we got a good price for our house, and now we just have to find something else. We may rent for a while, then possibly build in a few years.
Mason is doing great....he's getting so darn big! I look at pictures of when he was first born, and wow! What a difference! Other than that, not much else is new. Basically, I am just letting everyone know I am still here! lol

The flu has come.......and gone........!

Well, the flu has made a slight round at my house, hitting me the hardest. I awoke one morning around 3am for Mason, and felt sick. So, pretty much I was holding him (I was gonna feed him), and I really got sick. I mean really sick! Let's put it this way: It took me about 20 minutes to clean it all up.... then after I had to change my son's clothes, as I managed to get him, since I couldn't put him down fast enough. Mason had a little tiny bit of diarrhea, and Dave had a sore throat and a bit of diarrhea, but no one else puked. I found it really hard to be sick with a small baby, it was all I could do to just change a diaper. I felt so weak, and ran to the bathroom all the time. It really wasn't fun at all.
But now it is gone......we are just enjoying going to our mother's/baby groups on Wednesday and Fridays. The Wednesday group is more of a learning type thing. We learn about childhood illnesses, oral care, anything relating to babies. Friday group is more of a 'fun' thing. Mom's getting together and chatting, and occasionally we have a guest speaker....I really enjoy it.
Other than that, we don't do much. We go to the stores or mall, just to get some walking done.....(Can't wait for spring!) When the warmer weather hits, look for me at the nearest park with Mason in stroller!
I am looking forward to having Mason baptised soon. Feb and March are out because Dave's mom is gone those times, and March my dad and stepmom are going to Vegas. So it'll most likely be April or May.....not as soon as I had wanted, but what can ya do?
We got Mason a new car seat, as he is soon going to outgrow his 'bucket' infant seat. I had put him into it, and then discovered when he falls asleep, his head falls forward. So back to the 'bucket' seat until his head/neck control is better.
Anyhow, that's pretty much it for now. I have to go and 'unstuff' my son's nose. Poor little guy! He's so stuffy from this stupid, dry air. He's snoring as he sleeps at this moment, it's kinda cute!

I almost had a heart-attack................!

I swear I almost had a heart attack yesterday! Mason and I had been out with Dave's mom (Mason's gramma), and we went back to her house. She unbundled Mason from his car seat and picked him up. As she walked away from the car seat, her foot got caught up in it, and down she went, with Mason in her arms! I saw this happening, but there was nothing I could do! She somehow landed on her right side, and I think she managed to break the fall somewhat, but Mason did hit his head on the floor, but not hard as far as I could see. But omg! I freaked. I ran and picked Mason up, asked my mother-in-law if she was ok. Mason cried, but not for long. I was worried, but thankful it was carpet. He seemed more scared than hurt, but me, not wanting to take any chances, I took Mason straight to the ER. He was checked over, and the doctor said he seemed fine. But I had to check on him every hour or so to make sure he didn't have a head injury ( My biggest fear!). If he vomited, I was to bring him back immediately. Thankfully, he was fine! During the evening he was a bit unsettled, and I figured he may have a headache. I gave him a bit of tylenol, and he rested nicely after that. Plus, I think his teething may be starting.........the drooling part, that is. Oh, and possibly a growth spurt. So I figured a small dose of tylenol couldn't hurt. My mother-in-law felt so bad, she cried. I told her it wasn't her fault, it could have happend to any one of us, it was an accident. The funny thing is, the night before this happend, I dreamed I myself dropped Mason! Weird hey? That is the second time I have had that dream. But all is well now.............I have never been more thankful in my entire life! And that is my news of the day...................

So much happening these days!

My little boy is growing so fast! He is now 15 pounds! He is pretty much healthy, with the exception of a tiny little cold he has...........(and those darn hiccups right now!!) I was so upset that he had caught a small cold. I felt like it was MY fault somehow. I had him at the ER because I was worried. The doctor said he'd be fine, just keep him hydrated, etc. One other health problem I consider to be a biggy: He favors his right side of his head when he sleeps, and no matter how hard I try to keep him off of it, he ends up back on it. In fact, when I prop a rolled up blanket underneath him to keep him off of it, he just finds a way to go back on it! So now, his head is going a tiny bit flat on that side! The doctor isn't worried........but I am! I can put him in his crib, and find him half way across the crib the next time I go in to check on him. So propping his head up is useless. I do give him 'Tummy Time' as required (He hates it!), and I put him in his excersaucer (which he likes), just to get him off his head. I am so worried! I am doing what I can. But how long does it take to 'unflatten?' So there's always a worry of some sort.
Last night I was at the hospital because they thought my dad was having a heart-attack. (He wasn't, thank God!) I was so worried! They didn't figure out what was wrong with him so they will run more tests this coming week.
Mason is sleeping much better these days. He sometimes will sleep 7 hours straight, which is kinda nice. I usually put him down by 7 or 8pm, and he'll sometimes sleep until 2 or 3am. Sometimes I even go to bed at 7 or 8, just to get some sleep! He used to hate being put in his crib. He used to fuss so much, but now I can put him in it and he doesn't fuss so much anymore, and will often put himself to sleep. So, things are coming along.
On Wednesdays we attend a group for mom's and babies. This group gives ideas on safety and various other topics. On Fridays, we go to 'parentlink' and meet with other moms, and the babies can 'play', mom's can chat, etc......it's so nice to meet people!
Well, gotta go put my 'little man' down for a nap, he's looking tired, and he's been up for a couple of hours already.
Take care everyone!

I think it hurt me more than Mason.................

His first shots, that is! Mason had his first shots yesterday. He did well. He cried a bit after all 3, but not for long. He is now more than 14 pounds, and is 24 inches long. He's healthy as can be! The nurse was happy with his progress. He did go on a nursing strike for 3 days, but is now back to nursing. It was so frustrating! Anyhow, gotta run, my little man is fussing..................................

Happy New year!

Hopefully everyone has had a great holiday, and all the best in the new year to everyone! I had family for the holidays, so I was pretty busy. Mason's first Christmas wasn't much cuz he's too little, but next year will be much better!
Had a checkup at the ob/gyn this past week. All is good. Next time I am pregnant I'll be be checked twice at least for gestational diabetes, since Mason was so big. I'll also be put on a diabetic diet, and they won't let me be overdue, since Mason was 11 pounds plus. Gotta run for now, Mason is hungry as usual.

Merry Christmas, Happy New Year!!!!

Hopefully everyone had a great Christmas. Mason, and I went to my dad and step-moms on Christmas Eve. (Dave had the flu so he stayed home. We didn't want his germs!) Christmas Day was at our house, and thankfully Dave felt better. I had popped over to my Aunt and Uncle's house in the morning to see some family from out of town. We ate around 5pm. Mason seemed to enjoy the lights of the Christmas tree. He just stared and stared.
This morning we are just hanging out, and he WAS in a good mood, but now is getting cranky. I think he must be getting tired again. We had a lot of snow last night, so shovelling will be fun.....
Anyhow, gonna run for now! Happy New Year everyone!

A pretty quiet day!

Not a lot happening today. Mason has been pretty quiet, but alert. He had his 6 week check up today, and is now a WHOPPING 6.1 kg's, which is 13.42 pounds! I am starting to worry. The doctor is pleased with how healthy he is. I am worried though about 1 thing. Is he going to be obese as a child? I don't want him to go through that. I was not an obese child at all, so I am not sure what kids go through. But, I did pack on some pounds when I was about 23 or so, mostly due to some medications I was on, and don't like it. I have lost some since then, but I have a ways to go before I hit my ideal weight. So, if anyone out there knows of a baby that was big at birth, and how they are doing now, please let me know! For now, I am just going to plan for my son to get a lot of excercise and outdoor activities, and eat properly.
Having family at my house for Christmas, so it'll be neat to have Mason's first Christmas! (The camera is ready!) Of course, he is too little to do much, but it's still exciting just the same!
Have a Merry Christmas everyone!!! Happy New Year!

Frustration! Frustration!

I am very frustrated tonight. I have been trying to get Mason to sleep since 8:00pm. It is now almost 11:30pm. He is so fussy tonight! He just cries and cries. I have changed him, fed him, rocked him, you name it! Right now he is in his 'snuggly.' He has fallen asleep in it. But, if I try to put him down, he'll just wake up. I have tried to let him cry a bit.....it breaks my heart to do it! I have cried myself, I am so frustrated! I've tried burping him. I even took him for a drive! It really bothers me that I am unable to figure out his cries as of yet. I feel like such a crappy mother! I feel really alone today, like I am not really a part of the world.........I don't know how to explain it. If anyone has suggestions, please, PLEASE give me some ideas! Mason seems to fuss a lot in the evening. I am going to try to put him down now. Wish me luck!

Update...............

Hi everyone! Mason and I are doing not too bad! Still trying to get used to my new life! I like it, yet at times it's frustrating. Mason is doing much better at breastfeeding. He just falls asleep while eating. Sometimes, I need to supplement him with formula, because what I have is not always enough............he's a HUGE eater! I am not so sure if the formula he is using is agreeing with him, so I am going to try and get him into the doctor tomorrow. He is super gasey, but also has explosive poops. I just want to check it out to be sure. Plus, he seems to be in pain, the poor little guy! So maybe it is the formula, who knows!~
Mason is such a strong little guy! The day before his 4 week birthday, he was on his tummy for 'tummy time' and to air out his 'diaper' area, and he suddenly flipped himself over onto his back! Not sure if it was by accident, but I was surprised. Mason also has a darn yeast infection in his butt! So he has cream for that. Plus his baby acne was inflamed, so he has cream for that too. I feel kinda like I shoulda been able to prevent that, cuz it's not like he sits in dirty diapers for long, I am constantly changing him! But otherwise, I think his ailments bother me more than him. Today was his first time without me for longer than 20 minutes! His grandma took him for a few hours, and I used my free time to catch some zzzz's. (Chores will have to wait- I needed sleep more!) Well, gotta go put my little due to bed, it's 8:00pm.......time for me to go to bed too!

Fussy little Mason........

Hi everyone! I once again have time to give a quick update. Mason, for the most part is doing well. He's a bit fussy, and always hungry. My biggest problem with him, is he'll fall asleep in my arms, or Dave's arms, but as soon as you put him in his bassinet or crib, he wakes up. I amnot quite sure how to fix that one! Last night he slept quite well, and was up only 2 times. I am still very frustrated with how breastfeeding is going. He is doing a bit better, but sometimes he seems to be suckling, but I don't hear him swallowing, so I am not sure if he's getting anything, and this worries me. At least though he doesn't fight it so much anymore. I have had the public health nurses helping me with this. But jeez, it's so frustrating, and I feel like such a failure! My mom in law thinks I should give up on it, but for some reason, I just can't. To me, this is important. I am getting a bit tired of getting unwanted advice. I try to take it with a grain of salt, but sometimes it's hard. It's really frustrating when Mason cries and won't stop. He was so quiet at the hospital, and at home he's fussy! (he must be taking after me...I was like that as a baby) But, one thing will never change: I love my son more than anything in the world! He's beautiful! I wouldn't give him up for all the money in the world! I know in time I'll learn to deal with his fussiness. Plus, I have a lot of support, from Dave, my mom in law, and even community support. I am confused as to one thing. 50% of people say to let him 'cry it out' when he cries. Some people say 'go to him fairly quickly', this way he learns to trust, etc. So which is it? Well, gotta run for now.

Finally, time to write again!!!

My goodness! I finally have a little bit of time to write again! Mason is asleep beside me in his bouncy chair. The little monkey loves to be held! And as soon as you put him down in his crib, he wakes up! And boy, does he eat! I feel a bit overwhelmed by all of this, it's such a change! Totally worth it, but wow, so different! I love him so much! I am frustrated by his lazyness in breastfeeding though. He is just so lazy! He wants it now! The bottle is so easy, and breast he has to work for. I feel so horrible about it. I never wanted to bottle feed him at all, but he was so big, and he needed food, so they had to give him a formula supplement while he was in the NICU. He will take the breast, but only for about 10 minutes on one side, not enough to fill him up. I have been so sad and frustrated about this, that I sometimes just bawl my eyes out! I feel like it's my fault somehow, I really do. I haven't given up just yet, but I think I am getting close to it. He is now up to 11 pounds, 8 ounces. He is not starving, or dehydrated, which is awesome. If I didn't supplement him, he would be, so I am happy about that. But, I still feel so guilty, like I am cheating my son. I am pumping whenever possible, though. And he got all my colostrom in the hospital. But, I will keep trying.

Baby Mason's Birth...........

Well, he has finally arrived! What an arrival it was! Mason Currie arrived on November 10th, 2006............and not without a little bit of trouble!
I was to be induced that Friday morning, and I arrived at the hospital at 8am. Dr. Jeffery did not arrive until around 9:30, and so I was just monitored until then. At approx 10am, they put this gel stuff inside of me. Nothing happend the first hour, and after that, I was allowed to go down for lunch, then come back to be monitored again. Still nothing. So I was sent home, with the warning that intense cramps could come about due to the stuff used for an induction.
Well, I was so uncomfortable, I went home to bed........and then about 4:00 that afternoon, those INTENSE cramps began to happen! Eventually, about an hour later, they were so painful, I was almost crying. I called Dave at work, and said I needed to go to the hospital NOW! He was home from work within minutes, and my mom in law was there too, As I wanted her there. At the hospital, the nurse said it probably wasn't the real deal, but they'd monitor me, etc, etc! The pain was so intense, I began to cry a bit. I hurt like heck. All of a sudden, the nurse got quiet, and suddenly she pushed a button on the wall, and all some nurses came running in, and I heard one say "Call the Dr." I was starting to worry. Then suddenly, things seemed to be ok again. The nurse, Wendy, said they were going to keep me overnight for observation. I asked what was wrong, and she said "Baby wasn't happy there for a moment." I began to cry, and she said not to worry, baby was ok at the moment. Then just a few minutes later, the Dr. on call came in to examine me, and said I was 1 cm dialated. I was still in pain by then, major pain. The Dr. on call had the anestesiologist (Spelling?) explain what would happen if I need a c-section. I was getting really worried by then. The Dr.'s left and I was continued to be monitored. Suddenly, it was like all hell broke loose! The nurse said to call the docotr, and before I knew it, I was told they need to get my son out fairly quick. It was determined that every time I was having a contraction, his heart rate would drop significantly. So off to the O.R I went. I was so scared! I was afraid of a needle in my back, I didn't want it!~ Dave was allowed to be there after they froze me from the boobs down. To make a long story short, when they took Mason out, all I could hear was, "Whoa! We have a big brute here! He must be 13 pounds!" Actually, he was only 11 pounds, 1.5 ounces, lol!!! No wonder I couldn't push him out! When Dave went to tell our families about Mason, they couldn't believe his size!! Anyhow, I was in recovery for an hour after, then moved to the maternity ward after that. I was scared the freezing wouldn't come out, and i'd stay numb forever! Anyhow, I gotta continue this story later, Mason is calling (Crying for me)...................................................................Later!

Baby Mason has arrived!!!!!!

Just letting everyone know, I got home from the hospital yesterday. Don't have time for an update, or details of his birth, but will update ASAP!
Later!

Another day in pregnancy life........

Another day in my life as a pregnant woman. Nothing exciting about today, really. I just know that for some strange reason, I was really super tired today. In fact, I could've slept all day. I was just so drowsey, like someone slipped me a sleeping pill or something. I did get up eventually and have a bath. The main pain I had today was that darn sciatica! It was truly horrible today. I could barely walk......it was that painful! I finally gave up on braving it out and took a couple of tylenol. It seemed to help a little bit, but not a whole lot. It basically took the edge off. My sciatica improved a little bit more, and I killed time by making banana bread, which I love. I am so looking forward to possibley having this baby on Friday. (Tomorrow would be better, though.) So, as of yet, still nothing in the way of baby arriving.

Non-stress test today.........

I had a non-stress test today, at my doc's request. Everything was fine with my baby. So now, if I do not have this baby by Thursday night, I go in at 8:00am on Friday, Nov 10th to be induced. I am still hoping to have this baby before I need to be induced. But, if I have to be induced, that's the way it is, I guess. If that doesn't work, I sit out the weekend, and they'll try again to induce me on Monday. If that doesn't work, I am not sure what the next step is, so hopefully it works. I really don't want a c-section at all, unless absolutley necessary. As I say in every blog........"I am so tired of being pregnant!" lol. I mean it's been worth it, and I'd do it again, but enough is enough already, lol.
Until next time..................................